God, forgive me for completely misunderstanding my purpose in life. Over and over again.
Every day you set in front of me a choice: choose life or choose death. Which will you choose today? How many times I blow it, and choose second best. “I’d stop to drive her to the doctor, Lord, but I have some errands to run and she could call someone else.” But maybe you need me in that car with her. Maybe, for today, that WAS my purpose. I’ll drive, Lord, if you need me to.
“She’s just an online friend, Lord. I don’t even know her in real life. Not even in Facebook. Why would she want to hear that from me?” Because no one else will say exactly the words I’m hearing in my head? I’ll say it, text it, twitter it, blog it if that’s really what you want, Lord. I just don’t get it.
“I’ve had this conversation with her so many times, Lord. She didn’t listen last time. She won’t listen now. There are better things to do with my time.” So I guess you are the original guy of second chances, Lord. I know you said to forgive 70 X 7. Does that mean I pick up and start over that many times? Well, maybe just one more time, if you want me to.
“Are there any stable people in my life, Lord? Why does everyone seem to need me to help? Are you kidding me?” I wonder…is that how we sound to you? Is that how we ARE? Does it ever annoy you? I’m really sorry.
I thought I wasn’t getting anything done. I thought the distractions were distractions. They are the point.
And I get the point. Again.
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Marla, this is such an awesome blog post. Thanks for this, as this is exactly where I am currently journeying with the Lord, to simply surrender, and do what He tells me. I really needed to hear this.
If u don’t have the will nothing can be completed well.