God definitely wants my undivided attention. That’s a tough thing to get from a scatterbrained person like me. Nevertheless, that’s his message to me for this coming year and I’m having a hard time buying into it. The conversation, if it were audible, would have been something like this:
“So what goals do you have for me this year, God?”
“Be. Try not to DO everything. Just BE who I want you to be.”
“Oh, be all things to all people?”
“No, just BE what I created you to be.”
“Well you created me to be David’s wife. Got that. I’m Kylie and Jillian’s mom…that takes a bit of time but I love it. I’m daughter, friend, church member, infrequent (these days) blogger and aspiring writer. I’m a family member who loves all her family. Let’s not forget that I’m Toby-the-white-dog’s master and the love of his life. Is there anything else I’m supposed to be?”
“You aren’t quite getting this, are you.”
So the conversation didn’t happen, but then again maybe it did. God’s definitely made it clear that he wants me to stop worrying about all those roles and just be — each day — what He has asked me to be that day. To drive the point home, I’ve started off this year driving up and down the Florida Turnpike for various trips. There’s not much to look at on the Turnpike. There’s not much to do if you get carsick like me. David and I love to talk, but not for hours at a time and he’s really busy thinking of killer Scrabble words. So I got to watch the road and…be. And after a few hours, it was really comforting not to have to do anything, but just to watch the world fly by in a trancelike state while I wondered what it was like to be.
Be humble, be gentle, be kind, be compassionate. There’s a lot to be.
When I got home to arctic South Florida (don’t laugh…it really was), i turned on my fireplace and sat down in front of it. It’s the real world. It’s the new year. And it’s time for me to be. Pray for me.
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How enjoyable to get a peek into your relationship with your Heavenly Father. It encourages me to see Him working things out with each of His children. I hope you have a wonderful 2010.